So then Boris found Trixi through his sisters facebook account and said...
Boris: "YOU!..I can't believe you..it's thanks to my sister that I found out you blocked me..but, that's just fine. Thanks for misinterpreting. Whoever said I wanted a date either... I had my time and my heart to give to a friend I thought was special and sincere..with those blue ocean eyes and that warm smile..only to find out how two faced your personality turned out to be...Forget it. I had feelings for you..but, now I am not so certain anymore..I know who really deserves my heart..How could you..all these small memories hurt me so much..just to find out you are like the rest of other people that I've met and shared my heart, gave my time only to be stepped on like a rug...I loved you...Now, I just want you never to see me again..for the sake of not getting hurt again..date whomever you want live your busy life, hang out with the friends who have money and everything you ever wanted..my heart and my time was all but wasted..I may still be your friend..but, never will I ever be the same again... :/ -Boris...." April 24th 2011
Boris: "Sigh..I have only myself to blame..I am sorry..." April 25th, 2011
Boris: Listen, Amb..disregard the other two messages, really hear me out. I didn't think I would like you in this way. I just, got too lonely. I know I have myself to blame, because. I am the one that drove you away in the first place. Thanks to Baley, I met you. That day on your first birthday, I stepped in as your first arrival. I didn't really think much of you back, then. But, something happened and I started getting a little spark...Sure, I can take all the blame for it..but, can you really help it. You are just someone I need in my life. I am not someone that's too big or famous or really rich. Just someone who wants to spend time with you..I am never a stranger, ya know. Whether you are busy or I am..I always want to make at least a time or a second.
I got carried away with being lonely..My sister tells me I should really let it out. It's true, we need time apart..but, just to tell you. I met you and it doesn't seem fair to walk out on me. After just a little time....I showed my feelings in the wrong way. Let me try again...I really can't think back and be happy again with just memories..That's why it hurts a lot..when I can't get you out of my head. If anything there's more than your smile and your eyes..let me come to you and I'll make sure to make things right. Just so you know, come back...I really need you again..because, you made me feel not so alone..this'll really be my last message to you. I promise...the old Boris will always be here. I just want to come back and see Trixi again..." April 25th 2011
Trixi: "Hey Boris,
Sorry I haven't had a chance to respond I've been busy with finals and things
Sincerely I am sorry if I hurt your feelings, everything did become too much for me. I'm so sorry that you have been lonely, that is one of thee worst feelings to have and so i can understand where you're coming from.But Just so I understand where you're coming from more, what did you want to come from our relationship? Are you hoping for being more than just friends? Because from what I can tell you do and your feelings are pretty strong? and that's totally flattering but I don't want you to feel lead on by me or anything, and usually when someone has feelings that are that strong its hard for that person to want anything less than a romantic relationship ya know?...so I feel like even if we were facebook friends again it wouldn't really help you out more, probably just hurt because it would be one sided and I don't want to hurt you more Boris.." April 28th, 2011
Boris: "Hurting?...I know...I know how the pain feels..I actually did have feelings for you. I just didn't know how to show them...I got caught up in what I wanted..I didn't give you time to think or to get to know me a lot more...I thought I had someone special..someone I could trust my feelings with. You were smart..beautiful...and you still are. Looks hardly matter though, it's what you do with the trust that you have..I know you are busy..I know that you have friends that value your time...I just...wanted a chance to be with you more. That's all. I didn't think about pushing you out further..It's my fault. I am stronger than that, though...YOU know what..This pain is just what I wanted, I can take every blow..If it means having a solid resolve..I just want you back in my life. What I wanted from our relationship...was just a chance..since then, I did some changes. More control..more calm and more thinkin'. I didn't really feel alone when you were around....I don't care if you think you lead me on..I did this myself. If you gave me a chance to see you and explain... Maybe, you would see it a little better. I don't want less than a relationship..Just a chance to see if we could blossom and to really show you that our time really matters. That's all....There's nothing to be sorry about...I don't want things to be one sided..either....but, I don't care. This pain made me stronger. I'll do whatever it takes to be with you..because, I need your strenght...that's what really matters to me right now, I'll fight to my last breath. So...save it. Just come back..." April 28th 2011
Boris:
"I just want you back in my life..give it some time...it doesn't have to be soon" April 28th 2011
Boris: "Funny..you have such a loyal person for you..right here, then you turn tail and run. I don't get that..why be one sided. Why can't you just tell me in person and tell me that if it's too much for you. You would have been better off not having said anything at all..but, you did say something..does that mean that you had something, too..you are saying you don't want to hurt me more..yet, you already have. Don't you care? The times we spent..even if it wasn't the rest of our life, the day we met..even though it wasn't so mutual..I didn't think about it..it grew in place. I don't want to make this any harder..neither should you..but, I could have said nothing and left it at that..and have said good bye..I wanted to say those three words...Because, I found Amber. Yet, I lost her. You aren't the first...I don't want anyone else though, I am tired of searching...haven't you ever had someone say "I love you". Even once...I sure didn't..someone that I wanted, because I saw her as a special person...feel free to blame me..blame yourself..I don't care and you shouldn't either..not my words..my feelings..I just Love you...If only you knew that, maybe you would understand. You are just busy running away..finding something else..but...I just don't want to see "you"..miss the best thing that could ever happen to both you and I...Hurt me all you want, I don't care, because..I love you, Trixi..Nothing's ever too much..you just need to give it time...if you wanted..you can make me the happiest person in the world..that's your gift...those eyes, just you..it didn't matter how you looked.." April 30th 2011
Boris: "Let's leave it that then...Good bye...Make sure I am forgotten. Because, I want to be..too many people change...and you are right, it just..wouldn't do. I am glad I met you..but, our separate ways are just fine..I only hope Baley won't be doing the same..I'll guarantee IT!"
May 3, 2011
Boris: "There's something I want to get out of my head. Our friendship was probably not really..friendship..You probably already know that..sadly. I hated that thought, I liked you from the start...But, I liked someone before that, so it became a love triangle..as much as I want to forget it. It's pretty hard...I am really sorry, that I pushed you away. You are right, too..that if we were facebook friends again. It'd just hurt me more. I still think about you though...I am sorry that I do. :) Truth is, the way I let my feelings take over is..possibly because of my family..my dad anyways..he likes to think I'll never have someone like you..Dumb, I know. I hate having a lot to say...Someday, maybe it probably won't be like this...I am hoping we can just still think of each other.." May 8, 2011
Boris: "I don't believe the world will end soon. Ha ha..It's pretty dumb of a thought...Just in case...If it does though, Thanks for at least giving me chances to see you...Trixi.." May 20, 2011
Trixi: "You're welcome Boris, sorry that you've hurt in the past, that's never my intention. I just don't have the same feelings for you as you do for me and so I think it's best like you said, that we're not facebook friends. because you will find someone that will be perfect for you! Keep smile'n you never know who's day you'll make, Take care" May 20, 2011
Boris: "Yeah..take care..Goodbye" May 20, 2011
Boris: "......Sorry you saw me there. :/ But, I am glad you are safe..." June 11, 2011
Boris: "It was a crazy fight though. I saw you jump out and that's when I knew something was goin' on. Kind of lame that stuff happens...there needs to be more security to these types of things happening." June 11, 2011
Boris: "Hi, it's been a while. I just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday. Got a small reminder from MSN, it's not a sappy love letter, I promise. Hope you are doing great.-ris
Feb. 26th 2012
and there ya go, it was fun while it lasted. Bless his heart, we all know he means well. So it just makes for light entertainment to have these kinds of messages :)
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